My Worst Nightmare: Joe, Britain

February‘s theme for Voices of Berlin is My Worst Nightmare.   Joe, Britain “I had a recurring nightmare when I was a kid. It was that I was falling down a bottomless hole and being chased by a giant leaf. I used to call out in my sleep “I’m afraid of the giant leaf! I’m afraid of the giant leaf!” And I was, I was terrified I used to wake up in a cold sweat and crying, but I was young you know, 8, 9, 10 maybe. I’m not sure there’s not much meaning you can put on that, maybe it was a premonition about an environmental disaster? But I don’t like interpreting dreams.”   Voices of Berlin is Berlin Untelevised‘s monthly Lives project. This project is to show the connection behind real lives within this both crazy and wonderful city by asking it’s many residents one question or theme a month. Our ultimate goal is to curate...

My Worst Nightmare: Stefano, Venezuela

February‘s theme for Voices of Berlin is My Worst Nightmare.   Stefano, Venezuela “The first thing I thought of when you said worst nightmare is being buried alive. I have a terrible fear of that. I remember I saw a movie, I can’t remember the name, it could have been a show actually, but the guy was buried inside a coffin and he was trying to get out. It just scarred me for life… especially when I have to be inside anything confined. I was in this thing called the Tactile Dome and it was a kind of maze in the dark, and you were in there for 25 minutes going through little tunnels and slides and touching everything around you and it was completely dark. I almost went – I almost had a little, tiny panic attack but I didn’t. I’m a little bit claustrophobic but anyway, I just took a...

My Worst Nightmare: Mary, Ireland

Voices of Berlin is Berlin Untelevised‘s monthly Lives project. This project is to show the connection behind real lives within this both crazy and wonderful city by asking it’s many residents one question a month. Our ultimate goal is to curate a collection of accounts on many topics, ending each month with an abstract poem created through that month’s selection of responses and, thus, transform Berlin into a poet.  February‘s theme is My Worst Nightmare.   Mary, Ireland “So I had this recurring nightmare as a child. My dad was always really into music but it was always my mum that took me to this concert in my dream… which is weird cause it was always my dad that did that kind of stuff. She knew the band so we would go backstage and we got separated somehow, they would take me into one room and take her into another room. Then, I would come back into this...

How I Stay Alive: The Poem | Voices of Berlin – January

You come into existence, your brain comes online, you become a functioning unit then you’re like… the fuck? Today is the best day of your life… Just in a dream. Wow, this is a bit of a tightrope we all live on. I’ve thought many times about suicide… This repetitive, mind-numbing, soul-killing experience… I keep goin’ on, I dunno. I found little tricks, little things to do and really nothing helped. I didn’t want to ask anybody for help. It’s always work a day here, work a day there. There’s the sketchier, I-need-rent, Craigslist segment. Let’s go out every night and get fucking wrecked I don’t do ketamine so I really don’t fit in A foot fetish job, then… Can you translate my book? I keep reminding myself of my own self-worth. What’s going to keep me happy? It’s useless to protect people- the worst thing you can do to...

How I Stay Alive: The Collection | Voices of Berlin – January

Voices of Berlin is Berlin Untelevised‘s monthly Lives project. This project is to show the connection behind real lives within this both crazy and wonderful city by asking it’s many residents one question or theme a month. Our ultimate goal is to curate a collection of accounts on many topics, ending each month with an abstract poem created through that month’s selection of responses and, thus, transform Berlin into a poet. January‘s theme for Voices of Berlin is How I Stay Alive.   Eugenia, Greece  “I keep reminding myself of my self-worth. But mostly I stay alive with small and oriented goals, especially in Berlin because you can make a plan but not stick to it. There are all these questions like What are you doing with your life? How long are you staying in Berlin? But especially in this kind of city, there are so many different opportunities and you can not predict anything so I decided...

How I Stay Alive: Eugenia, Greece

January‘s theme for Voices of Berlin is How I Stay Alive.   Eugenia, Greece “I keep reminding myself of my self-worth. But mostly I stay alive with small and oriented goals, especially in Berlin because you can make a plan but not stick to it. There are all these questions like What are you doing with your life? How long are you staying in Berlin? But especially in this kind of city, there are so many different opportunities and you can not predict anything so I decided to plan weekly. Then you can pick your opportunities, even here tonight, it was very spontaneous… because then you can get overwhelmed and you can get worried about all the things you’ve missed and it’s fine because you can get surprised. You’re never disappointed.”   Voices of Berlin is Berlin Untelevised‘s monthly Lives project. This project is to show the connection behind real lives within this...

How I Stay Alive: Skylar, Canada.

January‘s theme for Voices of Berlin is How I Stay Alive.   Skylar, Canada “Basically, I’ve been unemployed for a very long time and anyone that knows me knows that I always need a job or gigs, and my friends have given me some random jobs, it’s always work a day here, work a day there. Then, a few months back, my friend and I started a jewellery brand. It wasn’t really a brand, but it developed because we got the opportunity to work at this shop and sell our jewellery there. So, we didn’t have anything, we weren’t making jewellery, we had 2 days and we just had to become a brand! So we did that and then we ended up getting featured in Vogue. It literally started because someone was asking for a jewellery designer, and we just said We could be jewellery designers, even though we’re not!...

How I Stay Alive: Petra, Slovenia.

January‘s theme for Voices of Berlin is How I Stay Alive.   Petra, Slovenia “I get up in the morning saying today is the best day of your life because it’s the only one you have and on top of that you are…. And then I start counting what I have. You are in Berlin, you are young, you have an inspiring project you need to do, you have food in your fridge, you have a phone, you have people around you to support you. Then I start listing all the things that I have and that makes me motivated. Instead of a place of lack, I come from a place of gain.”   Voices of Berlin is Berlin Untelevised‘s monthly Lives project. This project is to show the connection behind real lives within this both crazy and wonderful city by asking it’s many residents one question or theme a...

How I Stay Alive: Zeke, USA.

January‘s theme for Voices of Berlin is How I Stay Alive.   Zeke, USA “So basically, I’m a terribly ill man and I was in Berlin for about 6 months but the thing is, I was so devastatingly ill and I had no access to healthcare and then I waited about 4 more months. I was almost dead. You are supposed to have a certain amount of haemoglobin in your blood, about 14 and… I had 6. Really dangerous. So I packed my bag, I got on the aeroplane and I showed up in America, showed up at a hospital and just… fell. I spent the next somewhat 10 months trying to figure out how to make myself healthy again. I found little tricks, little things to do and really nothing helped. Eventually, I got put on a medicine, they thought I was doing really good and I applied for...